One whole year of being a ‘mother of two’, my goodness I love them to pieces, but I’m not entirely sure I have ever been so tired and that’s saying something, as I live with a chronic illness!
I hesitated posting this yesterday morning, as I looked at this photo totally objectively and wondered what people would see:
A tired mother with unbrushed, ratty hair and her two girls on the morning of the littlest’s birthday.
A woman who has things totally under control and so much leisure time on her hands that she can simply sit about on a weekday with her girls.
Let me tell you, it is entirely the first and for those who thought it *might* just be the latter, a reminder that behind the photos in these squares, we are all of us just muddling along, and often these platforms create an illusion of ‘perfection’ in carefully curated snapshots, that we ultimately fail to see what’s REAL.
I like to think that those who know me away from these squares, sees the same person when visiting my feed. Life in my real world and these little squares is, for the most part ‘good’, but just because I don’t shout about the money worries, the mental health struggles, the inevitable annual Christmas family pressures/logistics, the hot drinks and meals that have gone untouched, the unfinished sentences with my husband as a result of constant interruptions, the inability to grieve my dog because I never have a moment alone to think and process the loss, a baby who simply won’t sleep and a six year old behaving like a teenager, when all I’m trying to do is help her get better... it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
I love this platform as a creative outlet, a place to make the odd bit of desperately needed dosh, as well as a way to connect with like-minded folk, but don’t let mine or other people’s photos trick you, we are all ‘perfectly imperfect’ and just muddling along! Xx